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5

Edith Chester Hayes lived in the back apartment on the second floor of a house off Sullivan Street. The soot of eighty years had settled into every brick, and industrial fumes had gnawed the paint into flakes. A narrow doorway opened into the street, and a dim yellow bulb glowed in the foyer. Battered garbage cans stood in front of the ground floor windows.

Rogers looked out at it from his seat in an FBI special car. “You always expect them to have torn these places down,” he said.

“They do,” Finchley answered. “But other houses grow older faster than these get condemned.” His voice was distracted as though he were thinking of something else, and thinking of it so intently that he barely heard what he was saying. He hunched in his corner of the back seat, his hand slowly rubbing the side of his face. He paid no attention when one of the ANG team that had followed the man here came up to the car and leaned in Rogers’ window.

“He’s upstairs, on the second floor landing, Mr. Rogers,” the man said. “He’s been there for fifteen minutes, ever since we got here. He hasn’t knocked on any door. He’s just up there, leaning against a wall.”

“Didn’t he even ring a doorbell?” Rogers asked. “How’d he get into the building?”

“They never lock the front doors in these places, Mr. Rogers. Anybody can get into the halls any time they want to.”

“Well, how long can he stay up there? Some tenant’s bound to come along and see him. That’ll start a fuss. And what’s the point of his just staying in the hall?”

“I couldn’t say, Mr. Rogers. Nothing he’s done all day makes sense. But he’s got to make a move pretty soon, even if it’s just coming back down and starting this walking around business again.”

Rogers leaned over the front seat and tapped the shoulder of the FBI technician, wearing headphones, who was bent over a small receiving set. “What’s going on?”

The technician slipped one phone. “All I’m getting is breathing. And he’s shuffling his feet once in a while.”

“Will you be able to follow him if he moves?”

“If he stays in a narrow hall, or stands near a wall in a room, yes, sir. These induction microphones’re pretty sensitive, and I’ve got it flat against an outside wall of her apartment.”

“I see. Let me know if he does anyth — ”

“He’s moving.” The technician snapped a switch, and Rogers heard the sound of heavy footsteps on the sagging hall floorboards. Then the man knocked softly on a door, his knuckles barely rapping the wood before he stopped.

“I’m going to up the gain a little,” the technician said. Then the speaker was full of the man’s heavy breathing.

“What’s he upset about?” Rogers wondered.

They heard the man knock hesitantly again. His feet moved nervously.

Someone was coming toward the door. They heard it open, and then heard a gasp of indrawn breath. There was no way of telling whether their man had made the sound or not.

“Yes?” It was a woman, taken by surprise.

“Edith?” The man’s voice was low and abashed.

Finchley straightened out of his slump. “That’s it — that explains it. He spent all day working up his nerve.”

“Nerve for what? Proves nothing,” Rogers growled.

“I’m Edith Hayes,” the woman’s voice said cautiously.

“Edith — I’m Luke. Lucas Martino.”

“Luke!”

“I was in an accident, Edith. I just left the hospital a few weeks ago. I’ve been retired.”

Rogers grunted. “Got his story all straight, hasn’t he?”

“He’s had all day to think of how to put it,” Finchley said. “What do you expect him to do? Tell her the history of twenty years while he stands in her doorway?”

“Maybe.”

“For Pete’s sake, Shawn, if this isn’t Martino how’d he know about her?”

“I can think of lots of ways Azarin could get this kind of detail out of a man.”

“It’s not likely.”

“Nothing’s likely. It’s not likely any one particular germ cell would grow up to be Lucas Martino. I’ve got to remember Azarin’s a thorough man.”

“Edith — ” the man’s voice said, “may — may I come in for a moment?”

The woman hesitated for a second. Then she said, “Yes, of course.”

The man sighed. “Thank you.”

He stepped into the apartment and the door closed.

“Sit down, Luke.”

“Thank you.” They sat in silence for a few moments. “You have a very nice-looking apartment, Edith. It’s been fixed up very comfortably.”

“Sam — my husband — liked to work with his hands,” the woman said awkwardly. “He did it. He spent a long time over it. He’s dead now. He fell from a building he was working on.”

There was another pause. The man said, “I’m sorry I was never able to come down and see you after I left college.”

“I think you and Sam would have liked each other. He was a good deal like you; orderly.”

“I didn’t think I ever showed much of that with you.”

“I could see it.”

The man cleared his throat nervously. “You’re looking very well, Edith. Have you been getting along all right?”

“I’m fine. I work. Susan stays at a friend’s house after school until I pick her up on my way home at night.”

“I didn’t know you had children.”

“Susan’s eleven. She’s a very bright little girl. I’m quite proud of her.”

“Is she asleep now?”

“Oh, yes — it’s well past her bedtime.”

“I’m sorry I came so late. I’ll keep my voice down.”

“I wasn’t hinting, Luke.”

“I — I know. But it is late. I’ll be going in a minute.”

“You don’t have to rush. I never go to bed before midnight.”

“But I’m sure you have things to do — clothes to iron, Susan’s lunch to pack.”

“That only takes a few minutes. Luke — ” Now the woman seemed steadier. “We were always so uncomfortable around each other. Let’s not keep to that old habit.”

“I’m sorry. Edith. You’re right. But — do you know, I couldn’t even call you and ask if I could see you? I tried, and I found myself imagining you’d refuse to see me. I spent all day nerving myself to do this.” The man was still uncomfortable. And as far as anyone listening could tell, he hadn’t yet taken off his coat.

“What’s the matter, Luke?”

“It’s complicated. When I was in their — in the hospital-I spent a long time thinking about us. Not as lovers, you understand, but as people — as friends. We never knew each other at all, did we? At least, I never knew you. I was too wrapped up in what I was doing and wanted to do. I never paid any real attention to you. I thought of you as a problem, not as a person. And I think I’m here tonight to apologize for that.”

“Luke — ” The woman’s voice started and stopped She moved in her creaking chair. “Would you like a cup of coffee?”

“I know I’m embarrassing you, Edith. I would have liked to handle this more gracefully. But I don’t have much time. And it’s almost impossible to be graceful when I have to come here looking like this.”

“That’s not important,” she said quickly. “And it doesn’t matter what you look like, as long as I know it’s you. Would you like some coffee?”

The man’s voice was troubled. “All right, Edith Thank you. We can’t seem to stop being strangers somehow, can we?”

“What makes you say that — No. You’re right. I’m trying very hard, but I can’t even fool myself. I’ll start the water boiling.” Her footsteps, quick and erratic faded into the kitchen.

The man sighed, sitting by himself in the living room.

“Well, now do you think?” Finchley demanded “Does that sound like Secret Operative X-Eight hatching a plan to blow up Geneva?”

“It sounds like a high school boy,” Rogers answered.


“He’s lived behind walls all his life. They all sound like this. They know enough to split the world open like a rotten orange, and they’ve been allowed to mature to the age of sixteen.”

“We aren’t here to set up new rules for handling scientists. We’re here to find out if this man’s Lucas Martino.”

“And we’ve found out.”

“We’ve found out, maybe, that a clever man can take a few bits of specific information, add what he’s learned about some kinds of people being a great deal alike, talk generalities, and fool a woman who hasn’t seen the original in twenty years.”

“You sound like a man backing into the last ditch with a lost argument.”

“Never mind what I sound like.”

“Just what do you suppose he’s doing this for, if he isn’t Martino?”

“A place to stay. Someone to run errands for him while he stays under cover. A base of operations.”

“Jesus Christ, man, don’t you ever give up?”

“Finch, I’m dealing with a man who’s smarter than I am.”

“Maybe a man with deeper emotions, too.”

“You think so?”

“No. No — sorry, Shawn.”

The woman’s footsteps came back from the kitchen. She seemed to have used the time to gather herself. Her voice was firmer when she spoke once more.

“Lucas, is this your first day in New York?”

“Yes.”

“And the first thing you thought of was to come here. Why?”

“I’m not sure,” the man said, sounding more as if he didn’t want to answer her. “I told you I thought a great deal about us. Perhaps it became an obsession with me. I don’t know. I shouldn’t have done it, I suppose.”

“Why not? I must be the only person you know in New York, by now. You’ve been badly hurt, and you want someone to talk to. Why shouldn’t you have come here?”

“I don’t know.” The man sounded helpless. “They’re going to investigate you now, you know. They’ll scrape through your past to find out where I belong. I hope you won’t feel bad about that — I wouldn’t have done it if I thought they’d find something to hurt you. I thought about it. But that wouldn’t have stopped me from coming. That didn’t seem as important as something else.”

“As what, Lucas?”

“I don’t know.”

“Were you afraid I’d hate you? For what? For the way you look?”

“No! I don’t think that little of you. You haven’t even stared at me, or asked sneaking questions. And I knew you wouldn’t.”

“Then — ” The woman’s voice was gentle, and calm, as though nothing could shake her for long. “Then, did you think I’d hate you because you broke my heart?”

The man didn’t answer.

“I was in love with you,” the woman said. “If you thought I was, you were right. And when nothing ever came of it, you hurt me.”

Down in the car, Rogers grimaced with discomfort. The FBI technician turned his head briefly. “Don’t let this kind of stuff throw you, Mr. Rogers,” he said. “We hear it all the time. It bothered me when I started, too. But after a while you come to realize that people shouldn’t be ashamed to have this kind of thing listened to. It’s honest, isn’t it? It’s what people talk about all over the world. They’re not ashamed when they say it to each other, so you shouldn’t feel funny about listening.”

“All right,” Finchley said, “then suppose we all shut up and listen.”

“That’s O.K., Mr. Finchley,” the technician said. “It’s all going down on tape. We can play it back as often as we want to.” He turned back to his instruments. “Besides, the man hasn’t answered her yet. He’s still thinking it over.”

“I’m sorry, Edith.”

“You’ve already apologized once tonight, Lucas.” The woman’s chair scraped as she stood up. “I don’t want to see you crawling. I don’t want you to feel you have to. I don’t hate you — I never did. I loved you. I had found somebody to come alive to. When I met Sam, I knew how.”

“If you feel that way, Edith, I’m very glad for you.”

Her voice had a rueful smile in it. “I didn’t always feel that way about it. But you can do a great deal of thinking in twenty years.”

“Yes, you can.”

“It’s odd. When you play the past over and over in your head, you can begin to see things in it that you missed when you were living it. You come to realize that there were moments when one word said differently, or one thing done at just the right time, would have changed everything.”

“That’s true.”

“Of course, you have to remind yourself that you might be seeing things that were never there. You might be maneuvering your memories to bring them into line with what you’d want them to be. You can’t be sure you’re not just daydreaming.”

“I suppose so.”

“A memory can be that way. It can become a perfect thing. The people in it become the people you’d like best, and never grow old — never change, never live twenty years away from you that turn them into somebody you can’t recognize. The people in a memory are always just as you want them, and you can always go back to them and start exactly where you stopped, except that now you know where the mistakes were, and what should have been done. No friend is as good as the friend in a memory. No love is quite as wonderful.”

“Yes.”

“The — the water’s boiling in the kitchen. I’ll bring the coffee.”

“All right.”

“You’re still wearing your coat, Lucas.”

“I’ll take it off.”

“I’ll be right back.”

Rogers looked at Finchley. “What do you suppose she’s leading up to?”

Finchley shook his head.

The woman came back from the kitchen. There was a clink of cups. “I remembered not to put any cream or sugar in yours, Lucas.”

The man hesitated. “That’s very good of you, Edith. But — As a matter of fact, I can’t stand it black any more. I’m sorry.”

“For what? For changing? Here — let me take that in the kitchen and do it right.”

“Just a little cream, please, Edith. And two spoons of sugar.”

Finchley asked, “What do we know about Martino’s recent coffee-drinking habits?”

“They can be checked,” Rogers answered.

“We’ll have to be sure and do that.”

The woman brought the man’s coffee. “I hope this is all right, Lucas.”

“It’s very good. I-I hope it doesn’t upset you to watch me drink.”

“Should it? I have no trouble remembering you, Luke.”

They sat quietly for a few moments. Then the woman asked, “Are you feeling better now?”

“Better?”

“You hadn’t relaxed at all. You were as tense as you were that day you first spoke to me. In the zoo.”

“I can’t help it, Edith.”

“I know. You came here hoping for something, but you can’t even put it in words to yourself. You were always that way, Luke.”

“I’ve come to realize that,” the man said with a strained chuckle.

“Does laughing at it help you any, Luke?”

His voice fell again. “I’m not sure.”

“Luke, if you want to go back to where we stopped and begin it again, it’s all right with me.”

“Edith?”

“If you want to court me.”

The man was deathly quiet for a moment. Then he heaved to his feet with a twang of the chair springs.

“Edith — look at me. Think of the men that’ll follow you and me until I die. And I am going to die. Not soon, but you’d be alone again just when people depend on each other most. I can’t work. I couldn’t even ask you to go anywhere with me. I can’t do that, Edith. That’s not what I came here for.”

“Isn’t it what you thought of when you were lying in the hospital? Didn’t you think of all these things against it, and still hope?”

“Edith — ”

“Nothing could ever have come of it, the first time. And I loved Sam when I met him, and was happy to be his wife. But it’s a different time, now, and I’ve been remembering, too.”

In the car, Finchley muttered softly and with savage intensity. “Don’t mess it up, man. Don’t foul up. Do it right. Take your chance.” Then he realized Rogers was looking at him and went abruptly quiet.

In the apartment, all the man’s tension exploded out of his throat. “I can’t do it!”

“You can if I want you to,” the woman said gently.

The man sighed for one last time, and Rogers could see him in his mind’s eye — the straight, set shoulders loosening a little, the fingers uncurling; the man standing there and opening the clenched fist of himself. Martino or not, traitor or spy, the man had won — or found — a haven.

A door opened inside the apartment. A child’s voice said sleepily, “Mommy — I woke up. I heard a man talking. Mommy — what’s that?”

The woman caught her breath. “This is Luke, Susan,” she said quickly. “He’s an old friend of mine, and he just came back to town. I was going to tell you about him in the morning.” She crossed the room and her voice was lower, as if she were holding the child and speaking softly. But she was still talking very rapidly. “Lucas is a very nice man, honey. He’s been in an accident — a very bad accident — and the doctor had to do that to cure him. But it’s not anything important.”

“He’s just standing there, Mommy. He’s looking at me!”

The man made a sound in his throat.

“Don’t be afraid of me, Susan — I won’t hurt you. Really, I won’t.” The floor thudded to his weight as he moved clumsily toward the child. “See? I’m really a very funny man. Look at me blink my eyes. See all the colors they turn? Aren’t they funny?” He was breathing loudly. It was a continuous, unearthly noise in the microphone. “Now, you’re not afraid of me, are you?”

“Yes! Yes, I am. Get away from me! Mommy, Mommy, don’t let him!”

“But he’s a nice man, Susan. He wants to be your friend.”

“I can do other tricks, Susan. See? See my hand spin? Isn’t that a funny trick? See me close my eyes?” The man’s voice was urgent, now, and trembling under the nervous joviality.

“I don’t like you! I don’t like you! If you’re a nice man, why don’t you smile?”

They heard the man step back.

The woman said clumsily, “He’s smiling inside, honey,” but the man was saying “I’d — I’d better go, Edith. I’ll only upset her more if I stay.”

“Please — Luke — ”

“I’ll come back some other time. I’ll call you.” He fumbled at the door latches.

“Luke — oh, here’s your coat — Luke, I’ll talk to her. I’ll explain. She just woke up — she may have been having a nightmare…” Her voice trailed away.

“Yes.” He opened the door, and the FBI technician barely remembered to pull down his gain control.

“You will come back?”

“Of course, Edith.” He hesitated. “I’ll be in touch with you.”

“Luke — ”

The man was on the stairs, coming down quickly. The crash of his footsteps was loud, then fading as he passed the microphone blindly. Rogers signaled frantically from the car, and the two waiting ANG men began walking briskly in opposite directions away from the building. The man came out, tugging his hat onto his head. As he walked, his footsteps quickened. He turned up his coat collar. He was almost running. He passed one of the ANG men, and the other cut quickly around a corner, circling the block to fall in with his partner.

The man disappeared into the night, with the surveillance team trying to keep up behind him.

The microphone was still listening.

“Mommy — Mommy, who’s Lucas?”

The woman’s voice was very low. “It doesn’t matter, honey. Not any more.”


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